Months ago when I thought of A levels, I imagined myself mugging every hour, every minute, every second during the entire period. But it seems like I've deviated very much from that imagination. I've been playing before each paper, I study way lesser than expected and I've been spending more time with the dragon. It's been long since I had much fun and much bonding time, looking at my notes and with the dragon next to me. So obviously, that doesn't work and I've decided to study the bulk of my Econs tomorrow before I play at night.

Math went alright today, I just hope an A would surprise me this March but it's so unlikely because there are so many people who are smarter and they might have made lesser mistakes than I did. I've been thinking of what I wanna do in the future and I can't seem to choose a course I want to enter. And that's not exactly a good thing because that means I have no goal. When I have no goal, I tend to take things very lightly and no, I shouldn't be doing that. Being successful doesn't seem so important anymore because somehow it's best to do something you like doing, not something which you're doing just because of the high pay you're getting. I wanna do something music related but I just can't bring myself to pursue it because it's too risky.

An inferiority complex, in the fields of psychology and psychoanalysis, is a feeling that one is inferior to others in some way. Such feelings can arise from an imagined or actual inferiority in the afflicted person. It is often subconscious, and is thought to drive afflicted individuals to overcompensate, resulting either in spectacular achievement or extreme schizotypal behavior, or both. Unlike a normal feeling of inferiority, which can act as an incentive for achievement, an inferiority complex is an advanced state of discouragement, often resulting in a retreat from difficulties.

Yeah and thats what I've been feeling.

A level papers are so weird, too weird to be true. The structured questions for compre was just very weirdly asked but thank God the Summary and the AQ was so much easier.

Today doesn't feel like a special day and A levels seriously doesn't feel like A levels at all.

Math Paper 1 wasn't so bad though it was weird. Hopefully Math Paper 2 this Friday would be better. So it's GP tomorrow and ahhhh I don't feel like reading anything at all but I will, after dinner.

To all who felt that Math was hard/weird/unusual, don't be sad alright! It's not the end of the world cause it's only one paper so cheer up and work towards finishing A levels well!

A levels doesn't feel like A levels at all. It feels like a mock exam and thats good, no pressure.